rOme by rome

rOme by rome♥

my thoughts, my fragile eternity...

will i ever find my place in this world? xoxo

♥ Romemacedonia Janggau Cyril
♥ narcissism+sarcasm in nature
♥ fashion is my passion
♥ evokes vanity+immaturity
♥ love cherries
♥ love vintage & haute-couture
♥ craves 4 his own DSLR!
♥ broken-hearted & tryin' 2 move on
♥ complicated & a difficult friend
♥ my past, my regrets, my remorse
♥ tryin' 2 make it in medic, longin' 2 b a designer
♥ not a believer of fairy tales & happy endings..
♥ gave up on love
♥ loves his friends but sucks at showin' it
♥ yet, my friends r my life..
- yours truly, rome

talk ur hearts out♥

apology

Thursday, April 30, 2009 4/30/2009 11:27:00 AM

i am very sorry.

yesterday wasn't thinking right.

was raging in hormonal anger.

words just came out harshly and totally unnecessary.

to this 'guest', i apologize.

think all you want about me.

i hope you'll know me better.

to my friends who have supported me through this,

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!

love all of you to bits!!

muahxx to u all!!

till then,

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

FAKE YOU!!!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009 4/29/2009 09:47:00 PM

FUCK!!!!!

AM CURRENTLY DAMN PISSED!!!

SOME FUCKING ASSHOLE,MORONE,STUCKED-UP 'SOMEONE'

JUST CALLED ME A FAKER.

WATTA??!!

HELL YOU!!!

U DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO I REALLY AM..

WHOEVER YOU ARE...

GET THE HELL OUT OF MY SYSTEM.

U CAN CALL ME WATEVER YOU WANT..

THAT'S YOUR CIVIL RIGHT..

BEING UNCOUTH THAT IS...

BUT GET THIS STRAIGHT WILL YOU??

MIND YOUR OWN FUCKING BUSINESS!!

ME FAKE??

U WHAT??

FAGGOT???

FOOL??

FUCKER???

AS IF YOU ARE THAT sooo PERFECT???

MAY GOD HAVE MERCY ON YOU...

I FORGIVE YOU.

ALLELUIA

AMEN.

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

to make you feel my love

Friday, April 24, 2009 4/24/2009 09:20:00 PM

When the rain is blowing in your face

And the whole world is on your case

I would offer you a warm embrace

To make you feel my love

When evening shadows and the stars appear

And there is no one to dry your tears

I could hold you for a million years

To make you feel my love

I know you haven't made your mind up yet

I would never do you wrong

I've known it from the moment that we met

There's no doubt in my mind where you belong

I'd go hungry, I'd go black and blue

I'd go crawling down the avenue

There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do

To make you feel my love

Oohhhh ohhohh

The storms of rage are rolling wild and free

Down that highway of regret

The wind of change is blowing wild and free

But you aint seen nothing like me yet

There aint nothing that I wouldn't do

Go to the end of the earth for you

Make you happy

Make your dreams come true

To make you feel my love

am currently sinking deeply and madly with this song...

it touched my heart in a way i never expected to...

it means a lot to me...

i meant the lyrics...

love,

as we all can readily define,

is obviously not confined only to the 'love-birds' romance kinda love...

it's more than all those smooching around...

more than any of us here making out randomly...

yet,

we always overlooked these little things...

we didn't bother to know...

we just let the so-called ideal life lead us..

into this idyllic fabricated world of our mind...

it's such a waste though...

you could have the chance to love those around you...

a little bit more than you already did...

it would all make a difference...

yet we chose to settle for less.

you could tell your friends...

your bestfriends...

your close friends...

that you love them with all your heart...

yet, you chose not to...

cause, you felt it's unnecessary...

and some sort of weird...

even when it's the MOST normal thing to do!!

you could let your feelings and love out...

to reach out to your needy friends...

to let them know they have someone like you..

who actually loves them...

yet you chose not to...

cause you think it's a waste of time...

waste of energy...

shame on you.

you could have simply text your friends...

'i love you'

to give them the strength to carry on with this hectic life...

to give them the much-needed love in this barren life...

yet you chose not to...

cause you felt it's SOO lame...

SOO not important...

DAMN YOU!!

you could have tell your friends how much you love them...

how much you want them to be in your life...

how much you appreciate them...

how much they mean to you...

how much you long for them...

how you would never be where you are now without them...

BUT ALL THESE LITTLE THINGS....

WERE LEFT UNSAID,

UNDONE,

TILL,

THE VERY LAST MOMENT...

WHERE EVERY THINGS SEEM TO FALL APART...

AND COMES TO AN END.

[well, it's too late]

if you are a friend...

take some light steps...

let your friends know how you feel...

let them know you love them...

let them know you care...

let them know you miss them...

let them know you don't want to lose them...

cause if you don't do it now...

you'll lose them...

at least those who are truly your friends...

you might don't see them now...

you will by the time you had already lost them...

think.

act fast.

before it's too late.

till then...

regrets left unspoken

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

morning glory =P

Monday, April 20, 2009 4/20/2009 01:20:00 AM

woopeee!!!
=PP
i woke up damn early this morning....
8a.m.
[that's early for me on the weekend]
muahahaha....
usually i would be in deep slumber till noon cracks!!
sloth much huh??
[naa...just me having my very-much-needed sleep]

had breakfast with alvis...
gobi dumped us for the library!
bookworm??
nope...
lib-freak.
hehe..
sorry gobi...

the pathway to my dorm..

[dull huh?? was on the bench snapping]

=P took this random pic on my feet

[shows how desperate i am for a fun day-out!!]

huhu.. jamming my neuronal fluid over bio notes!!

[term 3's topics sUcks!! damn monotonous!!]

was revising on the bench...

under some shady trees...

damn steaminh hot that morning!

over 32 degree celcius!!

[summer much?? nope...]

only ran back to my room after the sudden bee attack...

it was no ordinary bee...

it was the huge, mutated-looking, coal-black bee....

stinging its way to me...

n my bio notes...

guess it overheard me cursing through the evolutionary forces on bio's...

hahaha!!!!!

slept instantly in room later....

till 2.20pm!!!

watta??!!!

missed my lunch!!

tummy was bursting in pylorical agony!!

[duncarethenjustgoonstudying]

felt the urge to text one close friend of mine late evening...

been missing him...

like hell!!

well, don't get me wrong...

we're like brothers...

at least to me...

=PP

he was asleep apparently.

got my reply the next few hours...

[patient much wei...]

glad to hear from him...

been ages..

neways,

just to let you know,

*i read ur dedication,

*it was very nice,sobby but nice.

*appreciated much & u're welcome!!

*& to remind you, i'm your old friend but

*i did not go away as u said, i'm still here my friend,

*always have,always will.

*so,don't think that way,okie dokie??

[sorry guys...that part was specially for 1 of my closest friend]

you've been in my life,

you've shared my past along with its darkest side,

you've been a dear friend to me,

we've had detours over our friendship,

but we've got through it.

so,let's get pass it,

and put us on track once more.

i've never substituted you,

never intended to,

so don't you dare turn away from me,

after all we've been through.

[StoB]

till then,

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

pandemonium

Friday, April 17, 2009 4/17/2009 11:08:00 PM

life...

mayhem much!!!

been my pandemonium now....

hate it...

yet stucked with it...

wattodoisodunno.....

haizzzz.....

oh yea,

to everyone...

am sorry that am not goin to edit the previous post...

lazy me....

am so tied up at the moment...

sorry yea???

back to my chaotic life....

2 weeks more to finals...

and i'm still at the edge of preps!!!

last minute huh??

haha...

that's me...

muahahaha...

just hope i can pull it all together this time...

*crossed-fingers*

this only means that few more time left for me to be here...

be leaving soon....

all the memories here....

gosh...

will be those i'll keep for a lifetime.

i've tried.

so damn hard to make peace,

to make things better,

before it all ends...

but why the other side just won't respond???

you are making things worst...

do u know that???

is it so fucking difficult to respond???

i'm sorry for the choice of words...

am buffled by your actions...

we are still ok la...

u know that...

plss....

what more you want me to say or do???

plss....

u trust me right??

i know i like to exxagerate stuffs...

but this,

i am being very honest,

and true to you..

plss....

plssss.....

will be waiting

still waiting

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

knuckled!!

Thursday, April 16, 2009 4/16/2009 12:41:00 PM

haizzz....
this past few days....
have been so exhausting and mind-numbing to me...
i have no idea what's wrong with me or my life at the moment...

the only thing i'm sure of is i'm all knuckled up...
been hibernating most of the times...
dunno-why-just-can't-seem-to-wake-up...
hormonal issues perhaps???

sue me for that will ya???
hahaha....

oh yea...
went shopping last weekend....
OMG!!!
spent over 1000!!!!
guess my adrenaline just got xtra pumped!!
shopaholism invades this once serene mind of mine...
=PP

btw,,
something awful left me in doubts,
questioning me myself &
my relationship with some people...

i've got no response at all...
till now!!!
all i've gotten was ignorance + oblivious act!!
wattafuck??!!!!

am gettin so pissed off each day...
yet i composed myself well...
please la,k??!!!!
i don't know what else to say or do????

WHY DON'T YOU TELL ME WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO??!!!!
YOU'RE FUCKIN MUTE, ARE YOU???
IGNORANT MUCH!!!

despite all the stuffs you've been hiding...
i didn't even say it out...
like flight stuff...

i've been asking so many times...
all you said was 'I DON'T KNOW'
fuck fuck fuck fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then go do behind me...
watta????

[subject to edit]

gtg..

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

summer blast!!

Friday, April 10, 2009 4/10/2009 01:10:00 PM

last thursday was our summer blast!!!
summer vacae for all june batch studs!!!!
in courtesy of our farewell party.....

yuppy yup....
agenda is sad,
but the nyte was effin fun!!!

the theme was summer vacae...
as a fashion expertie... =P,,,
i was in the hot, black & white summer theme...
since black & white iconic look is back for this summer....
sorbet colours are sOO in too!!!

ric helped me with my pick...
tanx ric!!!

so, here are some of the pics i took that nyte...

kirath & me

mr.june & me rockin the mic. off!!! yeah!!

ric [ the dazzling MC ] & me...

nic &me...

pri & me..my duet of the nyte..

rachel & me...

now..here's the queen of summer breeze, pravitha & me...

she's d'abomb!!!

anne & me..

june & me [ loved ur dress june! ]

well...

that's it for now...

i'll be putting up more pics soon...

bear with me..

muahxx..

to the friends i didn't get the chance to take pics wif....so sorry...

those who didn't even bother to take with me...

well,,it's ur lost!!!

[nxt time learn to appreciate will ya??!!]

&&&&&&

thank you so much tiff, elaine & ai ping for all your gifts!!!!!

i loved all of them so much!!!

appreciated much.

love ya all!!!

till then,

summer vacae

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

all intricated...

Wednesday, April 1, 2009 4/01/2009 12:10:00 PM

gosh...
am currently blogging from lecture hall!!!
yup...

caught me red-handed..
muahaha..
=P

sorry guys..
lately have not been posting pictures..
been all tied up...

exams in a month!!!
&&
ur dearest gossip boy here is SOO not up to the game yet...
nope...
am not a flunker!!!
haha...
will try 2 step up ASAP!!!

major damage control!!!!

btw,
been missing lots of things lately...
lectures...
tutorials...
haiz...

my ailness is gettin' the best of me.
gotta work on anti-depressant pills more!!!

hooliyaa....

&&
am goin kl this weekend!!!

yea!!!
so gotta getaway...
hate being alone all the time here!!!
am rotting here!!!
might as well be alone in my aunt's apartment...
no difference...
at all...

arghh!!!!

i've never felt so lonely before...
it takes losing every1 to feel this way.

the worst part,
that particular some1 just don't care.

what i totally am buffled with is the fact that
he is totally fine with every1 else.
i'm the only one getting the cold ignorant snap!!!

i'm scared.
if i ever will be forgotten.
i felt like i'm fading away.
it seems like,
now,
even when we crossed path,
he will not realise me being there.
i'm the invisible guy now.

from somebody i'm a wrecked nobody!!

arghh!!!!!

if i don't die of this,
i hope my cancer kills me!!!

[forgive me,GOD]

till then,

hate that ignorance of yours

dead

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥

Does the pain weigh out the pride??

Did someone break your heart inside??