♥ Romemacedonia Janggau Cyril
♥ narcissism+sarcasm in nature
♥ fashion is my passion
♥ evokes vanity+immaturity
♥ love cherries
♥ love vintage & haute-couture
♥ craves 4 his own DSLR!
♥ broken-hearted & tryin' 2 move on
♥ complicated & a difficult friend
♥ my past, my regrets, my remorse
♥ tryin' 2 make it in medic, longin' 2 b a designer
♥ not a believer of fairy tales & happy endings..
♥ gave up on love
♥ loves his friends but sucks at showin' it
♥ yet, my friends r my life..
- yours truly, rome


mistakes...

you can't run away from that,
it's inevitable...
it's running in our blood...
it's what makes us human...
all of us.

i have mine.
my mistakes.
my regrets.
my guilt.

i can't take it back.
i can't take it away.
i CAN'T....

i know how much i apologise,
it is never gonna be enough.
it is not gonna fix things.
it is not gonna mend us back.
it is not gonna bring us back.

yet,

I AM SORRY.
if there's anything i would ask,
pls forgive me.

i've learned and realised something today.
a huge difference in my life today than before.
a vital piece of me,
i want to go back home.
i never wanted to come here at first,
and i should have listened to my heart.
it has its own reason to do so.

i don't regret meeting the people here.
i don't regret having them as my friends.
the only thing i regretted is hurting them.
that's the ONE thing i would trade for anythin to turn back time for...
even my own life...

life is not worth it without them.


till then..



// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
sorry.....

have not been updatin my blog...
with all the projects,presentations & finals cming....
ur dearest, gorgeous blogger here had been pre-occupied...
so,,,darlings..my sincere apologies...

anyway,
lots had happened lately...
let me see...

1. i was the pariah of my own clique now
2. most of my friends are in the 'not-talking' mode with me
3. me n my bestie B are tryin 2 fix things...
4. trio-brthday party cming up...
5.party planner at work soon..
6. oppps...degrade me to only the so called 'cake planner'..
7. been writing junks in my diary...
8. under strenuos,arduous schedule nw...
9.lost 5kg..gasp!!!
10. left broken hearted n labelled as emo & problematic...


yupp....
life has not been well 4 me lately...
dealin with it...
just hope i can get through this...
can't wait 2 get the hell out of here...

my extreme diet is killing me...
whattodooo..............
huhu...
T.T
got nobody here...
it would be nicer and so much comforting to know that u have someone...
where's my someone????


WHERE??


till then...




// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
arghh....
am so hooked in madness and insanity
with this guy....
am cramping with physics assignment....
haizz....
got 2 pull off an all-nighter...

wish me luck yea...

til then....

u know u love me

xoxo

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
Friendship

1 simple word....
yet has vast and vague meanings....
both individually and collectively....

what does it mean 2 you??

no one can really have the exact, precise answer 2 that....
but we are all entitled of our own opinion and deliberation of answers....

so am i then...

to me,,,
it does not matter how long you've met,
it does not matter who you are,
it does not matter what are you,
it does not matter how are your traits,
it does not matter at all....

what matters is that shared, inner, unseen, strong feeling you have...
that special, intriguing emotions you have,
that miserably longing you have,
for each other.

true and best friends don't wait for you to call them for help,
they are always there by your side even when you don't want them too...
they are annoyingly hateful at times...yet,
they pull out that hidden smile in you.
they cherish and treasure you and every moments shared with you.
they never tell you to change who you are.
they are those whom without, you feel like you're dying...
they are the beat of your life.

you love them so much till you can't even describe what is it...
you felt so much worthy of this life coz of them...
you feel as a whole, complete person.

but,,,
not all friendships are like fairy tales....
duhh....

what hurts most,
when they don't seem to appreciate you,
when they swap you for other friends,
when they don't even realise you're around,
when they totally ignored you,
backstabbing....goshh that hurts awfully...
when they forgot you..
when they are not there for you,
when they are not around you..and would rather be with other people...
and lied about it...

datz friendship gone tastrophe.....

yet, you still hold on to them...
to that seemingly hopeless friedship...
cz you love them so much...
it's a murder now...
loving your friends...

trust me,
you SOO don't want to make your friends feel these way...
tell them how much you do care..
tell them how much you love them...
coz they don't know and it might be too late when they do...


till next time...



// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
arghhh........

am so wasted laznyte....
2 bored....
2 angry....
2 sad....
2 depressed....
2 surpressed...
2 demented....
2 socially suicidal.....

u cud say am havin S.A.D

seasonal affected disorder!!!

yup..it's a disease still yet unknown 2 science...

i ran out of campus...

ALONE!!!

then spent the day at CS....
roaming around as if i was inspecting the pitiful place...
did NOT come bak 2 uni...
spent the whole nyte n morning at some1's crib....
was fun, i surprised myself....
n currently jz got bak 2 uni...

so wasted....
so abandoned...

severe abandonement issue here....

seriously hate being here...
despise evrythin about it...
but hv 2 put up wif it...
screw them la...
a bunch of self-assuring-obssessed-maniac-morones-LOSERS!!!

haizz.........
thought i wud feel the moz minimum satisfaction of relieve after
spatting all those shits out....

..............nope..............
..............zero..............


out then....






// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥


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