♥ Romemacedonia Janggau Cyril
♥ narcissism+sarcasm in nature
♥ fashion is my passion
♥ evokes vanity+immaturity
♥ love cherries
♥ love vintage & haute-couture
♥ craves 4 his own DSLR!
♥ broken-hearted & tryin' 2 move on
♥ complicated & a difficult friend
♥ my past, my regrets, my remorse
♥ tryin' 2 make it in medic, longin' 2 b a designer
♥ not a believer of fairy tales & happy endings..
♥ gave up on love
♥ loves his friends but sucks at showin' it
♥ yet, my friends r my life..
- yours truly, rome





there is just to much pain,
too much agony to endure,
too much of getting hurt,
this torment i can no longer take.

i am wounded,
forever wounded.
this scar i have..
so deep,
so vital.
it can't be healed.
not anymore.

i am too hurt.
too broken.
too shattered.
i can't recover.
i've tried,
it's just too much pain.
the body,
the mind,
the soul,
all is weak.
all has given up.

too fragile,
too vulnerable,
too debilitated,
i can fight no more.
even when there's so much more to life.
you took a pivotal part of me.
my soul.
my love.

some things in life never change,
sometimes in life you don't find reasons,
some moments aren't and never will be forgotten,
sometimes you lose hope,
i lost hope.
when time rolls by you,
try to forget,
what holds you on....
some people in life are a part of you,
and when you let them go,
or try the slightest to do so...
you never lose them..
all because,
you find them living in you.
always have,and always will.

newcomers passed by...
lighten our days..
in times you left those who were there before...
were there for you at all times.
so easily,
so effortless,
you forgot.
but...
they will always be there in your life.
truth be told,
they are a part of you.
perhaps one day...
you'll have the wisdom to see..
to know,
to realise,
what you have given up,
for temporal pleasures.

in times,u'll rot in guilt.
lives in the shadow of the devils.
no more absolution.
for what you have done,
there isn't any justice to the other one.

all you did was...
ignored,
let go,
forget,
don't care..

you murdered your friend.
your once upon a time friend.
that's what it is now.
that's what i am.

why?
why??
tell me FUCKING WHY????

what have i done so wrong to you??
all i've done is and was...
to love you as my friend,a brother i never had,
a torch of lightful hope in my life.

i tried every single day,
to learn to be better,
to forgive,
to forget,
to understand,
to pretend and hide all my sorrows.

you knew better.
you knew me better,
than anyone else in my life.
yet, you chose to push me away.
you chose this,not me.
you left me crestfallen.
this is on you.

be a man of values rather than a man of success.

we all can be at the verge of success.
but at least do it in the right way.
i am a man of flaws and imperfections,
who tried to be better each day.
but that doesn't make you perfect,does it?
i put my studies in priority too...
we all have equal shares of time in life...
we all have our tasks,
our commitments...
some might have more to fret and worry over...
does it gives any of us the right to push a friend aside??
does it give any of us the right to give up on??
does it give any of us the right to waste this friendship we all built from the start??
does it give any of us the right to neglect,ignore this matter and let time takes it toll over us??
does it????!!!!!!!

DOES IT????!!!!!

if it FUCKING DOES to you...
then, [as much as you can judge me,then give me this one chance] you're not the person i once knew.

if it DOESN'T to you....
ponder on this and ask,

IS IT WORTH IT??

we are all better than this.
losing one person might not affect any of you...
but have you thought of that one??
it might be the whole world is against him..
don't take that life away from him.
with GOD's grace and power,
i humbly plead.

even GOD forgives..
even GOD never give up...
why can't any of you?

[no judgement made here]
[just a totally shattered-broken-dying young soul voicing out to reach his friends]



till then,

// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
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