rOme by rome
my thoughts, my fragile eternity...

will i ever find my place in this world? xoxo
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♥ Romemacedonia Janggau Cyril
♥ narcissism+sarcasm in nature
♥ fashion is my passion
♥ evokes vanity+immaturity
♥ love cherries
♥ love vintage & haute-couture
♥ craves 4 his own DSLR!
♥ broken-hearted & tryin' 2 move on
♥ complicated & a difficult friend
♥ my past, my regrets, my remorse
♥ tryin' 2 make it in medic, longin' 2 b a designer
♥ not a believer of fairy tales & happy endings..
♥ gave up on love
♥ loves his friends but sucks at showin' it
♥ yet, my friends r my life..
- yours truly, rome
talk ur hearts out♥



crossing over
Sunday, February 28, 2010 2/28/2010 10:13:00 PM


it's been a long & cranky weekend,
& today's the last day of the lunar year,
happy Chap Goh Mei peeps!!


crossing over thru pain, hurts & tears [ all seem 2 b black & white when ur' gone ]


been lazing around this weekend...
eyes tuned on my all-time fav series- Charmed!!
haha...
s2dies???
ermm....
i'm workin' on that..
reli i am...
haizz....
jugglin' up so mny things.....
s2dies r drainin me!!!!

went out yesterday,
wif sherlyn, yvonne & ki...
roamin around, lost our way at cinta syang resort area..
1 hour plus, tho we had fun wif sme small talks....
had japanese 4 dinner,
then went 2 village mall....

played at the arcade n shop 4 sme silly stuffs....
was a great nite...
free of books!!!
2day, ermm....
sinkin deep into biochem....
all the chemistry- i cn't feel it, not the slightest bit!!!
lolx...

newayz,
wishin my fmily back home happy chap goh mei!!
wish i cud b home & join the gathering...
sob..sob..sob... T.T

'trust, relation, promise & heart, these 4 things should NOT be broken, for they'll not make any noise but once broken, they pain a LOT! '




till then,

u knoe u love me

xoxo



// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
it's a new dawn...
Friday, February 26, 2010 2/26/2010 06:35:00 PM

as the blog speaks 4 itself...
i've NOT been around 4 centuries now...
well, it's not the 1st time...
i'm owez on the run....
i'm still searchin' 4 that balance in my life..
.........still.....yup, that's certain.

the last post was abt Elaine's b-day,
things kinda hit the high road after then...
things havn't been the same since then.

i shall not grumble over those days here...
well, i went back 2 my hometown 4 CNY...
10 days or smwer arnd there...
it was great....
i missed home a lot!
i don't feel lke updatin on my CNY's celbration..
since that's wat every1 else is doin lately...

currently, dealin wif sme room issues...
movin out and in...
instability knocks me out these days.
honestly, i'm all knackered...
and worst still, my exams cmin up in a week.

my prep u might ask & wonder??
well, not much though...
i'm takin' this exam [CA3] quite lightly this time...
i juz can't push myself over the limit nymore...
TMTH [ too much too handle]..
lettin' it be...
all i'll do is give my best shot,
and see what's installed 4 me.

lots of thinkings hv been done lately...
circumstances changes it all.
& the best part is, u don't even know it's happening.

all i have left to say is

" the more you invest in something, the bigger the return is OR you might lose it all "

i'm picking up the remnants of those broken bonds...
knowingly it hurts me along the way,
i still do so, coz it matters to me, even if it doesn't to others.

life is a very funny thing u know,
there's ups and downs,
but what sticks 2 u the most is NONE.

it's the time-in-between that u'll remember the most...
in fairy-tales, the 'in-between' is the time when all that's unseen will be seen...
i guess that's our fairy-tales...
the love, joy, laughter, hurts, pain, tears....
those times we spent & shared 2gether,
cud be in the fittin' room, hostel, birthdays, cafe, airport, & other terminals of our lives.
our 'in-between' sticks to us whether or not we would admit it.



u know u love me

xoxo


// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
of the 'fish mouth'
Friday, October 30, 2009 10/30/2009 12:21:00 AM

hey fellas,
sorry for the long break from blog...
havin my postphoned exams...
went well laa....
not worth elaboratin much...
haha!!!!


well,
today,
30th October 2009,
is Elaine's birthday...




HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELAINE OH YIN LIN!!!
[FISH-MOUTH]
:pp


anyways,
went out with my bestie B 2day...
we bought elaine her presents & a b'day cake...
all customized under:
B & R
xoxo
haha!!

then,
headed 2 my crib...
we took some tady bits of our artistic site & 'did' more on the presents...
haha!!!
[turned out very nice le...]
:PP

called the b'day girl down...
met her at the girl's place...
we gave her pressie & cake...
she juz woke up from her deep slumber!!
pity girl...
lolxx

then,
B, me, tiff, miku, ki & ang celebrated her bday at cafe...
took some pics...
[will b updated soon]

all in all,
it was a simple one...
but we enjoyed it...
we loved her!!!
next week,
The Clique will throw her a party...
[can't wait..]



till then,

u know u love me

xoxo




// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
eeegleeeee!!!!!
Sunday, October 18, 2009 10/18/2009 04:52:00 PM
hey peeps!!!
haha...
been so free....
so takin' fully the advantage to blog..

recently,
i've been all 'head-over-heels' wif the latest series...

GLEE!!!!!


u guys should really watch this!!!
mucho fun!!!!




below are the cast of GLEE...
they are all super-fabulous!!!
voices of tomorrow!!!







with this,


HSM is sOOO way back lame....
heehee...
[mucho sorry if i've offended any HSM-maniac!!]



till then,


u know u love me

xoxo










// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
movie-lonesome
10/18/2009 04:24:00 PM
hey peeps!!!

remember my once-upon-a-time post???
bout this piece from Jodi Picoult???
it's ok if u hapen not too....
understood mucho.....
i read it & it was so overwhelming...
love,love,love it!!


the holidays....
well, ur poor blogger boy here has been entrapped within 4-walls chamber...
F3A that is...
[my apartment]....
mucho lonely lorr....

to the least,
i've been watching sme movies...


[my sister's keeper]
very nice!!
not as god as the book...
but it's still good.
it reaches out to the vague reality of life...
lol.
7/10

[the time traveller's wife]
love,love,love this!!!!
it's a damn great book, & the movie, to me it lives up to the book...
tear-jerking mucho!!!!
hate the ending though...
i couldn't stop cryin...
in fact, still sobbing now...
8/10



[sorority row]
haha...
i never intended to watch this...
but upon readin 'hilda's' blog...
i'm interested...
so went to watch.
it was not bad....
very dark & twisted...
love cassidy!!!
mucho agree wif hilda on her accent...
6.5/10


till then,


u know u love me


xoxo





// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
b-ball...
Saturday, October 17, 2009 10/17/2009 10:47:00 PM

heehee....

hey peeps!!!

today, had so much fun!!!

played basketball with my bestie B!!!

mucho fun!!!!

6-2
[gonna catch up]

haha!!!

been long since i had mucho fun....

tanx B!!!




another night alone...
huhu...
T.T



till then,

u knoe u love me

xoxo


// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
all screwed-up!!
Friday, October 16, 2009 10/16/2009 07:35:00 PM

this post wil not b a good one...
sorry fellas...
ur poor blogger boy is emotionally disrupted....

it's my mid-term break!!!
for heaven's sake,
i shud b enjoyin it...
instead....
i'm all alone...
i repeat!!!
ALONE!!!!
in this damn place!!!!

gosh...
u guys...
who know me well enuf...
i'm never good at being on my own...
bad things happen...
all the time....
i'm scared.
[iknowit'ssillytou..]
yea...am 19..but i'm still scared....
i'm sOOO nOOttt OOKkk....

to those who texted me...
called me...
n asked hw am i doin...
i appreciated it...
my love goes to all of u...
[comebackfast!!! idonwantobealone..]

can't sleep...
ate dinner oni...
been in tears like nearly all the time....
this is not a good thing 4 me...

GOD,
give me the strength...
to carry on...

i'm not under any meds...
or caffeine...
or anti-depressants pills anymore...
yet i felt lke i am...

ARGHHHH!!!!!
lungs r deflating....
heart tumbling down....
brain-dead!!!

I HATE THIS!!!
DON'T LIKE IT EVEN A BIT!!!!


i shud hve gone smwer...
i shud hv known i will be all alone...
i shud hve known that i can't be alone...
i shud hv known i'll b scared...
i shud hv known earlier!!!

can't take this anymore...
T.T
[sob...sob..sob..]



empty...
sad...
tear-jerking...
i'm not who i am...

hate u.





// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
damnation? blessing?
Friday, October 9, 2009 10/09/2009 06:18:00 PM

gosh....
my 1st CA [ continuous assesment ] is cming nxt week...
it's juz right down that bend over there....
there...
over there....
right next to me....

lots of other silly, well i could very say...
a series of non-therapeutic, & stress-stimulating events......
hve gotten thru me along the way....
all i can say is OMeffinG!!!!

is it a very much a damnation???

or

rather a blessing from above-the almighty???

either ways....
i'm sure it doesn't really matters....
it's always about me in the end...
[haha!!! self-acclaimed-remark!!]
**forgive the vague vanity**

:PPP

anyways.....
well....
as the ages-dated saying goes...
there's always a silver lining on cloudy days...
well..i kinda 4got the actual line...
[heehee...nahh...self-editing...]

back to the main point....
things r goin up 4 me n my buddies...
haha....
my 2 silver linings who kept me goin..
[tanx B&R!!]
watever ppl wan to say...
watever things we hv said abt us...
watever u hv or wanted 2 say....
watever goes around....
all that matters is what we think...
all i nid 2 know was the truth of it all...
it's enough that i knoe U cared & will always be there 4 me...
datz all a humble,merely friend could ever ask for.
tq 4 dat.



okie dokie pokie tokie....
time 2 hit those piles of medical books!!!
wishing all my MBBS batch 15 & BDS batch 5 all the very best in CA!!!!!
wish me well 2, yea?? :PPPP



till then,

u knoe u effin lov me

xoxo


// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
lost hope.
Sunday, October 4, 2009 10/04/2009 02:43:00 PM


days grow longer,
as time goes by,
things....
people....
take their tolls in changes.


may love remains.
may hope remains.
may faith remains.
may friendship remains.

no matter how the weather change,
no matter how tough life can be,
no matter how cruel the reality is,
no matter how painful the truth is,
no matter how people keeps gettin on the way,
no matter wat the barriers are,

the questions are,

Does our friendship remains the same?

Do we stand a chance against all these?

Do I mean anything to u?
Bold
Does our friendship matters to u?

Does it gives u the rights to leave?

Am i ur friend,still or have i ever been a friend to u?

Am i ur bestie or a tool to be used all along?



[answer&end the doubts]



p.s: forgive me for my part in these issues of ours...i've lost hope in this friendship..i can't do this anymore.. so i beg u... if there is hope.. enlighten me.






till then,

xoxo







// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
..broken-hearted???
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 9/22/2009 02:45:00 AM
Cool comment CLICK HERE !!!


anywayzz....

i am currently glued to this song...

'broken-hearted girl' by Beyonce



here's the lyrics to ponder on...
[the lyrics really hit me as i felt it has something to do with what i'm facing currently]
T.T


You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day


I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day


I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh


I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl



u know u love me

xoxo


// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
...morning terror...
9/22/2009 02:36:00 AM
olaaa...
it's currently 2.36am...

and i'm fully awake...
hahaha!!!!

hols doesn't feel like hols at all now...
it's raya & i'm stucked in campus!!!

ARGHH!!!!

been spending my expandable hours in room....
all by myself....
listening to musics...
counting 'sheeps' crossing my mind...
facebooking....
assignments-multitasking....

haizz....
lame...lame...lame....

will somebody save me????
plsss...........

[frustration to the max!!]



u know u love me

xoxo



// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
aleen's b-day!!!
Sunday, September 13, 2009 9/13/2009 08:57:00 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARLEEN ATICA BTE DAVID ISMADI!!!!


sorry yea...
i didn't call u last nyte...
was so exhausted...
i went back room & fell into deep slumber...
very sorry my dear...

newayzz...
wishin u all the very fabulous in life...
rmember our deal k???
R&H!!!


muahhxxx!!!



till then,


u know u love me


xoxo



// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
updates!! [xoxo]
9/13/2009 06:41:00 PM

haizzz....
been rusty all over the edge now haven't i??
apology won't do me any good...
yet i'm still sorry...
T.T

anywayzzz,
here are some scoops on my bestfriend, Richard's homecoming party..
pictures worth a thousand words...

that's richard..
lmao


2 crazy dudes on the see-saw...
haha!!


tiff, alvis, me & ki...

sherlyn, me, tiff & alvis..
[love ur dress sher!!]

nic,sher,elaine,me,ric,tiff & alvis..
camwhores...haha!!

we were imagining hawai here...
lolxx..

diz..haishoo...
our modelling cover!!
vogue-Blown Away!!
haha!!!

posing over the gigantic elephant sculpture..
should hve been on top of the elephant huh??
lolxx...








well...
below is a very embarassing pic of some1 u might know...
-discretion advised-











haha!!!
tada!!!
spastic modelesque!!!
haha!!!!
[not dat bad though..]
hahaha!!!


love this!!!
nic n me...


the early-comers at You Turn Garden...
[i meant: the earliest!!]
no1 else was there...
haha...


more n more of us....
muahxx...


oh yin lin n me...
xoxo


me, tiff & elaine...


haha!!!
posing over the carlsberg...
angan2 muk jadi carlsberg model la ni...
lolxx!!!

me & my bestie Bong Bong...
[he caught dat prawn btw.. :P]



here's our very own sweetest couple of the day..
ric & nic...
hearts 2 u both!!!

haha!!
here are my 2 bestfriends...
finally the 3 of us are back in action...
[hope all 3 of us will stay as best buddies xmatter wat]
love both of ya!!!
xoxo



ric & me...
i fell over a 'fake' clam here!!
haizz...
s2pid clam!!!
haha!!!


the clique's photo 1...


the clique's photo 2
[all of them are my crazy buddies...my family..]
love ya all!!!!!


waa..
tanx 2 starbucks!!!
i finally got to update my blog...
sorry guys 4 the delay...


till then,

u know u love me


xoxo







// ♥♥♥ with love, rOme by rome ♥♥♥
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